We got our hCG results back, and my fears were confirmed...this pregnancy is, once again, not viable. We are broken, confused, angry, devastated. For some reason I thought that each loss might get easier, but it doesn't. Each baby we lose is uniquely loved and will be uniquely missed. My heart is punctured with three holes now, and none hurt less than the others. I truly don't understand why God allows us to continue to conceive when every conception results in heartbreak.
I am so afraid to think about where we go from here. We are meeting with our doctor Thursday to discuss genetic testing and anything else we can do to look for a reason.
Thank you all for sitting with me and encouraging me this weekend. I treasure your comments and am thankful for all of your support.