Saturday, January 26, 2013


Due to my anxiety about another possible ectopic, my doctor agreed to do an ultrasound yesterday...and we saw a gestational sac and yolk sac!  I am simply thrilled!  My beta looked good again, but based on my betas and my ultrasound it looks like I'm about two days behind where my last period would put me.  Next Friday will be the real test--the heartbeat ultrasound.  Please pray that we see that beautiful little flutter.

We have decided to go ahead and tell our families.  We would obviously tell them if we miscarry, and I think it will make it more real to me to share our excitement.

Friday, January 18, 2013

this could be real

Third beta was 245, doubling again. I'm still really anxious but also starting to get super excited. None of our previous chemical pregnancies even got over an hcg of 100.

So now we wait. Another blood test in one week and an ultrasound in two!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

looking up

Second beta came in at 119, a little more than doubling in 44 hours!  To say that I am excited is an understatement.  This could really be it--the completion of our family!!!!

Monday, January 14, 2013


First beta was only 52.  I really want to think positively, but we have been down this "low initial beta" road too many times before.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

please be different

After our failed frozen cycle, I had a very heavy period. Then I seemed to ovulate a few days late. Then yesterday I started spotting, which is not how my periods usually begin. Things seemed off. So today, while bleeding, I took a test. And it was positive. I've had four positive tests today with very visible lines. I have, however, continued to bleed.

When I told my husband, he started smiling and I started crying. But they weren't happy tears- they were tears filled with fear and anxiety and nerves. I want this baby so very badly. But I am so very scared that this will end the same as our other three non-ivf pregnancies.

Praying that this time is different.