We are not medicating this cycle and are giving my body a bit of a break in our (potential) run up to IVF. We are not, however, using any "barrier method" of birth control. As we were driving home from church this morning, A said, "Wouldn't it be great if we got pregnant this month?" My response: "I don't really want to get pregnant this month. I'm pretty exhausted, and getting pregnant is pretty much the same as getting a cold. I don't have the energy for it this month."
I immediately realized this was not a normal response, but for me at least it was an honest one. Rather than being the route to having a baby, being pregnant has become a temporary health condition. Oh, two lines? No worries...I will feel a little off for a few days, then within a week things will be right back to "normal." Just like a cold.
I know I need to change my perspective before we go to IVF. I want to proceed with IVF with as many positive thoughts as I can fit in my head. But the only experiences I have had with pregnancies have been short, scary, and over too soon. We all have our ways of coping, and I would love any advice on how to view pregnancy as a positive thing again.