When I graduated from law school, A and I took a fabulous trip to Italy. I wanted to give him something special for his graduation, but due to the incredible amount of money we have spent this year on trying to get pregnant, Italy was not an option. Instead, we went to a beautiful inn in the mountains for the weekend. It was a perfect get-away...we had fires, games, wine, and delicious food. Despite the great time, though, I definitely felt guilty that I couldn't do more for A.
While the emotional side of this has been grueling, the financial side has been incredibly difficult as well. This year we have spent enough out-of-pocket on trying to get and stay pregnant to pay for a car. If we get pregnant through this process, I know I will believe that it was the best money we ever spent. I fear what will happen if we don't get pregnant, though. I know that we couldn't have walked away from trying for a biological child without trying IVF, but if our fresh and frozen cycle don't result in a baby it will be hard to swallow the dent this has made in our financial situation. I just hope our investment pays off!