Saturday, January 12, 2013

please be different

After our failed frozen cycle, I had a very heavy period. Then I seemed to ovulate a few days late. Then yesterday I started spotting, which is not how my periods usually begin. Things seemed off. So today, while bleeding, I took a test. And it was positive. I've had four positive tests today with very visible lines. I have, however, continued to bleed.

When I told my husband, he started smiling and I started crying. But they weren't happy tears- they were tears filled with fear and anxiety and nerves. I want this baby so very badly. But I am so very scared that this will end the same as our other three non-ivf pregnancies.

Praying that this time is different.



6 comments:

  1. Smiling and happy for you, but sending prayers this is another take-home baby. Congrats my friend - all the best.

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  2. Congratulations! Sending many prayers your way.

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  3. Praying this is meant to be! Congratulations!

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  4. Praying that those pink lines stay put and strong! I cannot imagine the feelings you are having right now.

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  5. Oh sweetie! I hope this time is different. I teared up reading this post...you deserve this so much! I will be thinking of you and look forward to reading happy updates soon :)

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  6. Holy cow! How unexpected. Holding your hand!

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