Wednesday, November 14, 2012

and we're off

I started wearing my estrogen patches yesterday, marking the real start of this frozen cycle.  People always talk about pregnancy you forget all the bad stuff so that you want to do it again.  I think there is also infertility amnesia.  I had forgotten how sensitive I was to all of this stuff, and just how quickly I would feel the effects.  This morning I was already seeing stars in the shower, and I have been ravenous all day.  It's all worth it when it works, though.  That's what I tell myself.  That's what I remember each time I look at my son and daughter.

I'm feeling super anxious.  With our fresh IVF, I just always believed it would work.  I just did.  This time, I'm not feeling so positive.  This is our only embryo, and my mind keeps telling me that we can't possibly be lucky enough to have 3 embryos equal 3 babies.  I'm trying to kick those negative feelings to the curb.  While guarding your heart can be useful, negative feelings definitely don't help the process.  So I'm trying to let myself daydream about the possibility of this third child.


  1. EEEK! I am so excited for your FET. I start the estrogen patches for our FET as soon as my period comes...sure wish it would get here :) Looks like we will be cycling very close to each other. I can't wait to hear about your third child growing healthy and strong!!

  2. I am so excited for you : ) I understand why you're nervous, but you're more likely to get pregnant since your body has already been pregnant. I really think this will work out for you!

  3. Very exciting, but very hard isn't it! I'm going crazy - halfway through my wait to see if my only frostie left over after the donor ovum cycle that created my son. Not easy to get back into the groove. It felt so strange and yet so normal to go back to the IVF clinic - I know the receptionist and nurses too well!!!