I've noticed that I'm a bit distracted lately...a bit on edge. Maybe it's just the move, but maybe it's more. Perhaps it is the fact that we are starting to dip our toes back into the "trying to have a baby" waters. The twins will be one in less than a month. We have one frozen embryo from our IVF cycle, and we are beginning to talk seriously about our FET. There are more logistics to figure out this time...our embryo is in our home state, while we are not. Monitoring, transfer, and follow up will be a bit more complicated. Which is why we are talking about it. We are making preparations now, hoping for a smooth FET sometime this winter.
Going back to the days of shots and tests and wonder and anxiety is not something I look forward to. Sure, it will be different this time. The stakes aren't quite as high. No matter what, we have our twins...we have two children already. We are parents. But still, I long for this child. Since the day bittiest was frozen, I have considered him my child. I think about and pray for him often. I bought him his own baby pumpkin at Halloween. I cannot wait for the day when we get to meet. I beg God that he will be strong like his brother and sister, and that he will survive and live and get to join us in this world. No matter what, though, he is part of our family. And I want to make every preparation possible to give him the best chance at life.
If any of you lovely ladies have advice on remote FETs, I would love to hear it.